JIST OF MY LIFE TILL NOW

MARCH 15  :                         JUST A JIST OF MY LIFE TILL NOW

I really hate to write this blog but i had to because i do not have other options to pass time.

    Yeah well i'm basically at a lower point of my life and i really hate to say it , because i didn't expect this in my life.

After my Tenth grade where i scored full marks i chose science stream for my higher studies. Obviously because of my sister also took the same stream and at that time i didn't have any other goals or dreams in my life neither any one to guide me.After that i got admission in St philomenas HSS koonammavu. I studied hard , got good marks and performed very well in all the exams and secured  a mark of around 90%.

NOW WHAAAATT............................................??

A big question arise in front of me. I can't follow my sister because she is preparing for medical entrance examinations. I really hate that atmosphere and i don't wanted to do that. Then what will i do.............?

I applied for several degree programmes in the accredited universities in kerala as my peers. That is the only way come in to my mind at that time.After the allotment results came i got some admissions for the degree programmes i applied one at Alappuzha and other at Ernakulam maharajas college also at St pauls Kalamassery. During that time my neighbour friends of my same age they were applying for diplomas in polytechnic colleges . And i think that already i applied for so many courses and colleges then why not just applying for one more programme . I applied and i got admission for a programme called "Chemical Engineering". There lies my biggest failing decision in my life.I really don't think about for at least once just selected it over other degree courses . And for the first semester i made some friends and the course syllabus were very similar to my plus two subjects and it seems very easy to me and then for the next semester there comes the core subjects and at first i thought its just the beginning and soon or after i'll like it but as time pass by i really hate the subjects and course. This is the time i really found out that i chose the wrong course and i really shattered to see my decision is failing apart my life and career. At first i thought of just abandon the course and go for something else . But a 19 year old boy thinking about abandoning the course i really don't have the courage to do that.But my close two friends whom i considered as my best friends are the ones who really kept me going.During the course i really came out of my shell and more active in the class activities. But still not talking to girls , that was my biggest fear and i really don't have the guts to do that.But the joyride was for not so long. Corona crashes my precious days from my life and left with boring online classes and assignments and even our industrial visit was through online LOL :). 

After the classes and our exams i completed my Diploma in chemical Engineering with good marks and thanks Corona for that..

Then come the days where we are considered as a jobless & ambition-less youth life . Just eat sleep and repeat even apply for some jobs and apprenticeship's but most of the employers are looking for graduate with at least 2 year of experience , But where can we get a good experience without employers even didn't gave us a chance to prove ourself in their companies . At last i got an apprenticeship in FACT a reputed fertilizing production company based in Kochi and i got myself into the rank-list with the help of my good marks .

The batch consists of some of my classmates and friends . so that was a relief to me .

The apprenticeship started at the month of February .And at first glance i really was afraid because of the conditions of the company and i really don't know what to do.First i reported to the ACID plant production manager and he gave me some instructions and told me to sit on the room next to him and refer the manuals available there.And at first due to the enthusiasm i referred to the books and tried to understand the plant details and as days as gone by i feel so bored i went in to the plant field where the real process happening and tried to understand the situations and processes from the field technicians and they some what explained it to me as most of them are north Indians the communications were difficult. But i somehow managed to understand from them.

As days are passing and i slowly understand that i really can't work in this field because i find it very boring and not interesting.Slowly i tried to find alternate ways to skip and deviate my career from this.

For that i have tried many options for studying abroad.Because that was quite common at that time i tried several agencies for suggestions for different courses not related to my core field and that way i can deviate from it .Thats the day where i heard about a programme called Ausbildung . That's a programme in Germany where individuals of plus two passed students from India can study abroad Nursing for about three years with accompanied to a hospital and after that getting into a real job with the same employer or others you wish to work.The programme offers stipends during the three year and that is really secure fields as we can reliable on because personal health care will not be automated soon.The only problem is that we have to learn German language . That's a big time consuming factor for me as i'm already done my three year diploma and i really hate waste more time.But i have no other options and i started to take an online German language classes from 9 - 11 pm every night after my training in the company. I really hate to attend the class at that time because its a boring time to attend the class and somehow i completed the two levels of my German language levels A1 & A2. But i really don't want to continue my language levels in online sessions because it's boring and not reliable at all than real-time classroom experiences.

At February of 2023 i have completed my training and then here comes another session of jobless and boring days . Where still my papa have to work every day and bring food to a 22 year old me .What a shameless days . I really don't gave up on my language studies i tried to get admission for next level of my language session but they will first test my knowledge and only give the admission. As i already have a 2-3 months gap to my language studies i really don't even remember a class from the online sessions . So i feel really tensed and i have to study really hard to get in to any institute to continue my studies . As it take some time to study and their next batch class starting dates are so long i really don't like to waste my time and i joined for an IELTS exam coaching and trying to find courses in European countries which suits me as well as with my German studies. And also for part time i applied for a job at reliance smart point shop near my place there by i can earn some money what i needed of.

THAT'S ALL ABOUT MY LIFE.....................................

PRETTY BORING RIGHT. 

AS A STUDENT WHO SCORE HIGH MARKS IN MY HIGH SCHOOL TO A JOBLESS , AMBITION-LESS PERSON.....................:(

I REALLY HATE MY LIFE , BUT LIVING JUST FOR MY PARENTS TO SEE ME SUCCEED AND GAVE THEM A BETTER LIFE THEY DESERVE.

THIS IS ALL FOR NOW 

I'LL COME BACK AND WRITE A SUCCESS STORY INSTEAD OF THIS BORING STORY OF MINE .

OR ELSE  I WONT......